hello Derrick

i had a rough day you mon comptain

its friend in french

sounds like it has been that way all around

strange

good luck wished to you

well i see your msn messenger problems and raise you ex boyfriend probems

he is here for the week end and he usually comes every two months or so

yeap it gave me hope for the first two times but then it just hurt alot

i told him and he claims we are just friends but i think he wants to be more

he asked me to move to ca but i said no

and he can't move here

so the relationship can't go past friendship

we are having lunch to tomarrow before he leaves

yes

he came with his uncle who has a business conferance in harrisburg

yes

no i don't

what pic

i think he does but i am going to tell him how i feel

thats fine

the only thing that i miss the relationship we had

my only

what

it was easy

oh

sorry i took it the wrong way

i did photo grams this week they turned out really cool

the online thing gets me everytime

it is comming along fine, we need to finalize the details but it is comming along nicely

that is fine

i am not always easy to follow

Nov 11

thanks

i am blushing

i don't take commlenments well

lol

so personal question

well not really but how long ago was those pics taken

lol

i had another guy who but the age that the picture was taken and not his actuall age and when i met him with my sister he lokked twice the age on the profile

we were freaked out

it takes the safty out of the relationship

my frist relationship i had to lie to alot of people and it made it feel so wrong

its complicated

it was with my uncle and i didn't know better at the time i was lost and lonely and he seemed to the only one that knew what i was going through and said if i told that no one would like me anymore and took advantage of it

i sent him to jaiol ten years later for it

i don't usually tell many people that

thanks but it made me stronger to face every thing in my life

no its fine i just don't like to tell it that much

but that is why i seem mature then other people my age

i mean it is just something that i had to go through

that is just one of many of my battle scars

and i wear them with pride

i like to think so

just work tomarrow and baby sitting for my aunt my uncle is out of town and she needs help with her kids

next weekend i am going to the ren fair with the activites team members

it's pirates week end

if i do i will tell you and send a picture

i have a pic of him on my desk at work

and everyone else in my office

i am the only male

i also have pics of my favorit shows too

Holly Marie Combs, Orlando Bloom, Collin Farrel, and Victor Webster

i have alot of pics of the girls from charmed

i am a huge fan

it helped me get through high school i own all the seasons on dvd thanks to my sisters

yeah they are like that

thanks what about yours you don't talk much about them

well for me they are just part of my life

so i can see if other people don't have the same relationship with theirs thats fine we all are brought up different

me too

my cat is drinking my water

she

lol

thats fine

i do have a boy cat

and two girl cats

all three are siblings

my aunt had the parents

yes and i do like dogs to

i had two of them a white german sheperad and a black lab and yes they get along fine

yeap

they all have their own personality it is funny to see how they act together and on their own

the one felmale cat likes to prop her head and front body on pellows and bags

we call her the lady of the house

yeap

yes i do

but no more then the others

their was a forth cat but he died two years ago

he looked like a baby panther

he was a big scardy cat

but loveable

she only slept with me and some times by himself but most with me

yes and no

just talking to people

i get that alot

i can give you three guesses why they want you and you get one

exactly

lol hope he is not waiting by the phone

yes true.com and yahoo with no luck just a bunch of scotts

yeah i went on two dates or outings and they were just paln weird and gross i am so glas that i have friends that can bail me out

yes and yes and they way i felt when i was with them and usually i gave it ten minutes and then i got the phone call to leave.

i owe them big time

good for you

none of the guys tried to contact me after that so i think they got the message taht i was not interested and i let them know in a e-mail just so it was clear

i will let the police know ahead of time

your too sweet

i think i can handle almost anything i have two sisters remember

i have dadged many shoes and lamps in my time

when they fight it is like its raining cats and dogs or shoes and purses

lol

yeap

i don't get mad often and when i do i don't like what it does to me

wow, i would do the same thing. me and my one friend we would duel and just lash out at each other and fight sometimes

we had a good relationship so we just knew how far to go she packs a punch

the one who am going to be the god father of her child, yes

i was afraid after i came out that i would need to protect my self in some way and she taught me

thanks

i am glade she picked me

and i am going to be the best man in the wedding

actually he doesn't have any close friens so i won by default

nope

i am

his family is not happy with the arangement they are having a wiccan wedding

yeah and they don't care they are having it their way

nope not at all

it is all ways goo to chat with you

i hope you have fun

same here

almost every day my computer signs on ottomaticly

ususally at night and mid day

sure i am free nights early in the week

and weekend

and the same to you i will tell the sand man to sprinkle a little extra dream dust for you to dream

i can only hope

and dreamis a wish that your heart makes

good night hummble Derrick of greencastle

and untill we chat again

as shall you

welcome

night

hello again

sure

great i went out with somefriends and found out i was goign to be a gofather

you?

god father

yeah i feel really happy the god mother and i were told today and we went baby shopping

well window shopping

lots of baby cloths and we went into to spencers and found alot of things

for the parents

i am checking my email right now and i found it

you are too sweet

and your welcome

nope not at al i has been a long time since i just chatted to someone

i am happy to hear that you had a pleasent one your self

i got up at one

just alot of good fun

i haven't been going out with friends as much since i moved away

i am slowly getting out

i do

when i came out they were the ones that supported me

They made it seem like they learned something new and not like i was suddenly this demon

and they mase everthing better

they even grew them selves

how did they take it

sorry

i just got a phone call on my cell and i hit the wrong button

aslong as it is not a turn off

oh my bad that time

i found that out at bowling the one night

it was rock and bowl and me and my one friend were just dancing to the music and this one guy came over and was hitting one me

at first i thought he was hitting on my friend and then he asked for my number

he turned out to be my coworkers brother and he was 15

so we call each other just to talk

we met at a park once and asked me for a kiss and i told him that was taking it too far to quick

it was only 24 hours after we met

he settled for a long hug instead

as do i

he is a nice guy just too green

that was two weeks ago

he is a westler and plays the violin

he showed me some moves and yes he does

nothing that i don't already know

yes

he is very flexable

yes he has had more hook ups then i have

must be the water

since he is a westler he has a bigger playing feild

his age and older

most of his boyfriends moved to college campus

your last name is Mitchell

so is mine

Nathan Edward SolinMcConical Androus Mitchell

that is my whole name

mom only uised edward when i was in trouble

that is so funny that we have the same last names

what states have you been to

NY [ Goegia, Texas, N & S carlina Virgina WDC maryland new jersey

Inidanna

wva

no just the east coast

i would love to go to Canadan and Europe

Sydney is so beautiful

my cousin worked on a cruse ship and took pics for me

so do i

they sound like fun

my best friend just took on and she said it was something every one must do

Alaskin cruise

whale watching was the best part

she showed me pictures of the iceburgs and the whales tales it was great

i would also like to go to france

just to see the louvra

yes

blocks away from the eiffle tower

i took three years of freanch

hopefully that will be enough to get around

sort of

don't ask me to type it

bad at spelling

speaking it i am ok not fluent but ok

some herbrew and latin

half of my family is jewish

well atleast you got engish

lol

ok

i like to learn about things

in highschool i learned about different religions

lol

i learned that each of them are parralle to each other

sometimes i get boaring like everyone else

i love all kinds of music its anexpression of someones soul

that you have uncomptable silences witha nd just just want something new which i rarely get

i agree rap is hard to grasp but it is rooted into something

todays messages is just up grades from generations before but it still is hard to get into

we had a christain rapper com to our church and he was hard to follow

but a white christian rapper was just funny to hear and see

because it is not what you expect

ok

folded too

what

no that is me in high school

maybe

add a cherry and yes your forgiven

and nuts

yes

i was looking out my glass door and that was the look i was foing for

my friends have alot of me deep in thought pics

i wanted one of my own

who took your pics

i have a friend who has one to she took the last pic of me

that he should

as i can see

does he develope his own film

she is a digital so she send them out to be printed

wow

no i did

this is one of the only ones i have taken my self

that is a year old

and my hair has frown out to my shoulders i am donating to locks for love

i though so

i am taking a curse this semester

it is black and white and i shoot a role of film yester day to develope tomarrow

thanks

a little you have a friendly smile

are you always this humble

i will have to ad that to my qualities that i find attractive in a man

you took the word out of my mouth

i am some one who wants to witness someone elses live to let them know that some one cares for them

i know

i was on just to chat with another person and just to talk

i think the sex is better that way

no you are not stupid you just know what you want

and their is nothing wrong with getting what you want

they are lonly and are willing to do anything to not be alone

they are the type that just need a person to be with not matter what how long so they can get what they want and to be satisfied

my uncle was that way

now i am gettong to personal

yes

i will

i know

i know

same here

as do you

i told my sister about you

and she said that to find a gay man who like to watch nascar

not just the drivers

Earnhardt

dad is the Tony

she is

i guess

i didn't want to be here when he came home

well here

yeah me to i have cflass in the morning

i know i hate when that happens

and you as well

you too

Good night Derrick and i hope we chat again

your always welcome

night